Likes :
Music / Bass / Sports / Moshing / Japan / Visual Spectacles / Experimenting / Playing with Darren! / Holding mini-gigs at home with bros / Enjoying Life / Being Crazy n Happy
Dislikes :
Bad Music / Bad people / Stress
Listening to :
Blight Of River-Systems by Maudlin of the Well
Reading :
French for Suckers
old time feel good songs, beegees, beatles, 90s radio music
heavy metal, death metal, melo death metal, black metal, doom metal, power metal, thrash metal, industrial metal, progressive metal \m/
Guitar heros - Vai, Satch, Buckethead, John 5, SRV, Wes Montgomery, Al Di Meola, Paco De Lucia, Rodrigo y Gabriela, Justin King, Les Claypool, John Myung etc
Jrock, Jpop, alternative, indie, classic rock, slow rock, brit rock, hard rock, math rock, weird music, experimental
lil bit of classical, jazz, blues, chi pop, ska, reggae, trip-hop, electronica n everything else.
intruments, vocals and anithing musical.
Happiness n Good Health for Family n Frens
Happy Training n Job
Outstanding Linguistic Skills
Le Parkour sessions
Guitar/Bass virtuosity
A Keen Eye for Art n Fashion
Renowned Culinary Skills
My Own FnB in the future
To Spread Good Music
...My One n Only
You
If you want to be happy, be - Leo Tolstoy
Many aspire, few achieve - Anonymous
All big things start small - Quoted
Nothing to show, but everything to prove - Quoted
Becoming a better person? It's what you do when no one else is looking. - Quoted
| Monday, February 02, 2009 |
Days in france get be lonely..
very lonely..
esp, when u're here alone,
with no singap,
and all ur french mates have gone back home.
you're stranded in the base,
with nothing to do.
i can't help but spending all these thinking.
and when i think,
i start to think back of the good old times.
and starting to feel really emotional.
in fact, i spent the whole weekend,
staring at the comp,
hoping for that certain someone,
to chat with that certain someone.
only this makes mi feel human,
like a person,
to be part of someone else's life,
to love and to being loved.
//
i have so many things to tell ya.
about the great week i had,
about the stuffs i bought,
about the motivation u are to me,
about me thinking of ya.
but time and again when i look back at the empty screen of the comp,
i m reminded of the harsh reality.
u have ur own things to do,
and u have no obligations to be there and listen to me.
i didn't give u any status..
but i just can't bare to get u the status.
i really duno if it's me for you,
i dun want you wanting for me and missing out on life,
i dunno what i whud do if i broke your heart,
i dunno wanna lose someone soo special and precious like you,
i wanna count on u forever.
so maybe it's best if we keep things this way..
budden u made mi see the other side of things,
truth is,
if we both carry on with our lives,
and end up in a relationship,
we'll prolly strain away from each other..
we wun be spending as much time together,
and we can't be as close anymore.
and besides,
i cannort imagine ya with any guy,
i just can't trust him enough,
i just can't bear to let him break your heart.
"it's not that i like you, it's just that i dun like the guy u're going out with"
maybe it's better for me to say "i love you"..
//
maybe maybe,
i m just reading too much into things and jumping to stupid conclusions again.
then i'll make the same darn mistake of being too emotional (which no gal can take) n screwing things up.
maybe maybe,
it's better to take a step back and be ratinoal,
"maybe she just ain't free?"
"maybe she is talking abt someone else?"
maybe at times it's better not to care.
absence make the heart grow fonder.
in all case, u should be more of a motivation than a distraction.
it's proven.
yesh,
i will prove it to u to i can achieve things here.
i will prove it to u that i can have a great bod too.
oh well, that's the prob.
as my good fren once put it,
"sometimes it's hard to love someone more than she loves you,
but it can be too much when someone loves you more than you love her too."
balance bah.
we all have our own life too.
give each other some space.
but i wish you could be a bigger part of my life too...
