Likes :
Music / Bass / Sports / Moshing / Japan / Visual Spectacles / Experimenting / Playing with Darren! / Holding mini-gigs at home with bros / Enjoying Life / Being Crazy n Happy
Dislikes :
Bad Music / Bad people / Stress
Listening to :
Blight Of River-Systems by Maudlin of the Well
Reading :
French for Suckers
old time feel good songs, beegees, beatles, 90s radio music
heavy metal, death metal, melo death metal, black metal, doom metal, power metal, thrash metal, industrial metal, progressive metal \m/
Guitar heros - Vai, Satch, Buckethead, John 5, SRV, Wes Montgomery, Al Di Meola, Paco De Lucia, Rodrigo y Gabriela, Justin King, Les Claypool, John Myung etc
Jrock, Jpop, alternative, indie, classic rock, slow rock, brit rock, hard rock, math rock, weird music, experimental
lil bit of classical, jazz, blues, chi pop, ska, reggae, trip-hop, electronica n everything else.
intruments, vocals and anithing musical.
Happiness n Good Health for Family n Frens
Happy Training n Job
Outstanding Linguistic Skills
Le Parkour sessions
Guitar/Bass virtuosity
A Keen Eye for Art n Fashion
Renowned Culinary Skills
My Own FnB in the future
To Spread Good Music
...My One n Only
You
If you want to be happy, be - Leo Tolstoy
Many aspire, few achieve - Anonymous
All big things start small - Quoted
Nothing to show, but everything to prove - Quoted
Becoming a better person? It's what you do when no one else is looking. - Quoted
| Tuesday, October 30, 2007 |
so tell me what's worse?
Having nothing to do or having so many things to do?
when u got nothing to do, u get bored.
when u got so many things to do, u get frustrated.
moral of the story, get others to do for ya what u dun want to do,
so u can have all the time to do whatever u want to do.
but what abt things tt u can run away from?
like someone u gonna spend the rest of ur 18months with?
tt's like a sick dog u gotta hang on to for 18 months.
only diff is u can send the dog to sleep,
but nort in the case for a buddy.
oh well.
soo lil time left.
and our commander still dun wanna let us go on leave cos
'we're still on course'
we're going overseas for freaky 18 months HELLO!
and we got like 18 days left onli..
why i keep using we...
I I I I I I I I..
I got only 18 days left...
why m i getting so fucked up inside?
rarr
nort onli m i forfeiting my off entitlement.
nort onli m i losing the drive to study.
nort onli m i losing my nerves over countless admin bullshit.
i m losing my social life oso.
oh well.do i enough have much of a social life to begin with?
rarr.
in short, i m losing my sanity.
"so son, what are u going to do this weekednd"
this is the most fucked up question for mi.
well, parents ask mi tt out of concern.
to see whether to prepare dinner for me at home or nort.
to see if i m spending the night out,
and just to remind mi to come back early.
harmless lil question asked by parents?
NO.
it hurts mi so.
why why why?
cos the answer is always no.
i got notin to do over the weekend.
i get sad moody n stuck at home over the weekend.
every time i sit at the dining table eating dinner.
i start talking to myself, questioning myself.
the evil me laughing at myself for being such a piece of creep.
and that very same evil creep is starting flare up at his family members over the littlest things.
worse is towards parents n lil darren.
argh..
soo inconsiderate.
the shitty thing is tt i dun do such stuff to others.
maybe it's cos i m close enough with them tt's why i dare to be like them in front of them..
parents are just concerned.
lil bro just need some attention, someone to play with him..
but i ain't doing good by shurgging off irritating questions, spending more time alone den with bro..
sigh..
the evils of individualism..
oh well.
and when u tot u met a fren,
ur fren disappears..
sighhh.
mi my music n my life
