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Saturday, September 08, 2007

So much to say..

kk. been a long long while since i blogged liao. really lazy to blog while in camp la. so i shall compressed everything here now since i m in the mood. hopefully i can recall everything tt happened in the past weeks in chronological order *sips Anything~* here goes!

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Sometime 3 weeks ago..

went NUH to visit my paternal granddad.. he's been getting pretty weak lately.. ever since i went over to aust for flight screening.. really quite scary to see how much a person can become so frail in so short a period of time.. sigh.. things dun look pretty good la.. went over to see him at my aunt's place over the past weeks and things dun seem to be getting any better.. people say tt when u reach a certain point in life, u will know life's coming to a end.. it seems soo true.. it's nort tt i m heartless or ignorant or anything.. but when u see it for urself.. bah.. i ain't as close to my paternal grandparents as i m with my maternal grandparents la.. so i dun feel as sad.. but stilll.. aiya.. nice to see tt my grandma's pretty strong n caring.. when my maternal grandma reached the final chapter of her life, i felt really very very sad la. it's really painful to see someone soo strong n lively (from chasing ya with the cane when u were little to spending hours a day making all those yummy soon kueh, ang kueh, rice dumplings) slowly weakening, and end up motionless on the chair or bed.. sleeping most of the time anyway.. all the life n vigour faded away.. although my maternal grandparents weren't really always very close n loving (they used to be at loggerheads quite a bit in the pasts, engaging in small small quarells here and there), but my granddad really stood by her till the end. tending to her, helping her in every single way (she was to weak to feed herself..), talking to her.. on that fateful morning, he was sitting quieting, at a corner away from her deathbed. being the stubborn old man he was, he was trying to hold back her tears.. but it was too much for him, for anyone in the family lass.. the old man oso broke down n was sobbing to himself.. hai~ well.. a pair of doves dun really last long after one has flown into the skies of heaven la.. less than 2 years later.. he became much quiter, physically weaker as well.. one fateful night, he lost his breathe, and ended up in eternal rest as well.. hope my paternal grandma will con't to fight on, live life to the fullest.

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Sometime 3 weeks ago..

in the same NUH, i see too MANY young docs and nurses. until the extend i feel pretty uncomfortable n doubtful of their ablities. esp the nurses man.. from their faces, i feel tt many of them are just working to get their job done.. i dun really see the heart to help n heal.. i serioously hope i m wrong man. it's like.. many of the patients are really old n i am sure you aren't really hopeful abt life when u're really old n weak, donning a boring blue medical clothing, lying on a hospital bed, flanked by machines, syringes, bottles of pills, soft gooey baby-like food, needles n tubes (you get what i mean, alternatively, go walk in a class c ward urself to get a few urself). moreover, the patients ard you dun look every happy n young oso la.. they're probably thinking of the same thing as you are.. the worst thing is, there's a piece of paper beside ur bed that includes ur personal particulars, ur doc's name, what language u speak and ur 'situation'. i'm sure u'll feel like shit if u're classified as 'situation critical' rite? wahlao..

something must be done la.. to liven up the mood.. to give them a reason to live.. now i know why ppl dun like to be thrown into a ward la.. u're sick alr and u're thrown into this gloomy place, makes u feel more depressed la.. i m sure the docs n nurses will do their best to help la.. but even simple decorations or programmes to engage the patients will help in their therapy.. and i know, we gotta be honest with ourselves, sometimes, when it's time to go, it's time to go.. but what we can do at least, is to provide these people with a happy, meaningful, peaceful final chapter to their lives.

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Sometime 3-2 week ago..

before i got my laptop approved to bring into camp, gotta listen to radio on hp to get my music energy. nort tt the radio provide enough adrenaline for me to do my work optimally la.. but i still need something, anything musical to get mi going la.. u know how bleaugh radio music n djs can be sometimes.. but i heard a damn nice song on radio recently!! quite a amazing find imo. Foundations by Kate Nash! haha. nice nice. radio must play more of these sorta music. reminded me of The Dresden Dolls. maybe it's the heavy English accent. nice nice nice. whee!

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Exactly 2 weeks ago..

1st time moving into bunks.rarr.gotta stay cos the new skool comm says so.was dreading it quite a bit 1st. cos i ain't too close with my 'buddy'.. den now must stay in with him somemore. oh well. ended up things didn't turn out too badly la. can save money on tpt n food oso. more time n more focused to do my studying as well. yeapyeap. only thing is tt we're staying in at the wrong period of time la.. cos of the change of skool comm, there are lots of new rules la.. now got lights out at 2330hr n reveille at 0545hr. last time sleep anytime n wake up 0630hr oso can. now got area inspection oso. tt's the most irritating wan imo. bah. regimentation shud be minimal to enhance studying n soldier's performance!! haha.

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2 weeks ago..

been waking up a lot n dreaming a lot.. lasted the whole week. guess i was really too tired.. thinking abt too many things. all the weird dreams.. haha.. just read up abt sleep in my aviation books. says tt weird dreams are part of REM sleep, when the mind is trying to organise ur tots while u're sleeping. thinking i really thinking too much abt things liao. esp all the admin matters to settle b4 going france. really irritating. cos the whole program is still kinda new, so many things are not in place. even the higher-ups are nort sure of how to go doing things sometime. so we're quite stranded sometimes. rarrrrrr~

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Last tues..

went for my 1st GFET. GFET is the centrifuge machine. wahhahaha. at 1st quite scary, cos we heard tt one's G tolerance is dependent on one's build. a short n stocky build would be ideal cos
1. with more muscles, u're more able to gek n restrict the blood flow from flowing away from ur brain n heart la.
2. the vertical distance distance btw ur brain and heart is reduced. hence initial diff in blood pressure btw ur brain and heart is less, and there'll be more dissolved 02 and blood in ur brain b4 u lose conciousness. anw, an interesting point to note, u will nort be able to lose conciousness when u're lying flat on the floor cos the vertical distance btw the brain and heart is zero. hahaha.

anw, my 'buddy' has been preparing himself a lot for these la.. working out (or shud i say over-working out) at the gym, doing mega squats (cos the tensing of lower body muscles are more impt when it comes G tolerance), to the extent of getting curious stares from other ppl in the gym la. cos he's like doing 5-7 sets of 5 reps each time, doing squats with damn damn heavy weights. think got at least 50kg or more. just freaking scary. den i happily study, more concerned of finishing the syllabus la. so nv do weights for damn long liao. den he was like ' hey, u better do abit. will def help u with GFET. ' aiya, look at his face u know he despise mi for being skinny la. haha. i fit lor. at least i dun wanna be short n stocky like him... gross. yikes!

anyway, i went ahead 1st. hahaha. and i did nort bad even without much working out :P managed to hit 7.2Gs. tt's equivalent to 7.2 the times the gravity on Earth ie everything weighs 7.2 times. den my 'buddy' hit 7.9Gs. tt's pretty good la honestly. BUT BUT BUT. my 'buddy' being the champion he is, damn sad he cannot reach the maximum 8Gs on our 1st try. so he began making lots of noise, saying how confident he was of hitting 8Gs on the 1st try, and shud really push himself a bit more, and damn sad damn depressed tt he cannort hit the 8Gs etc etc. yawns. afterall, the lil skinny dude hit 7.2Gs rite? ;) so wad does Mr. Champion do? go zham more weights after the GFET. haha. after gym, he look sibei jialat, all the energy sucked out of him. he lean against table, saying he cannort stand anymore. i just *rolls eyes* and con't studying.

haha. end of week. he zham soo much weights, and didn't had enough time to study finishing. end up didn't do too well for progess test. damn become stunned and emo after losing to mi.. damn funny, cos the test results is online wan. so when i m in the bunk studying, suddenly he goes 'HUH?!' damn freaking loud. i tot what. so i asked him what happened. he just stunned and dun wanna reply. 'no la, notin notin' when i looked over, he was looking at the test result website and he quickly switch off the window when he saw mi looking in his direction. MWhahahaha. OWNAGE :P man, i slowly getting a kick by winning him in everything he wish to win mi in. hahaha. cheers to Mr.Skinny!! =)

disclamer. i m not skinny kk. i m fit lor. it's a relative term when u're comparing someone like my size to him. hahahahaha.

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Last fri..

emo day. got happy hour in skool. everyone go mess makan. but i was alone. cos wso ftr cos only 2 of us. then i dun really know the other ppl ard. ada with themselves, pilot with themselves etc. bleaugh. bah. after dinner, hang ard alone for a while den zhao liao. grrr. didn't even bother to socialise or interact abit. just damn out of place. bah. lucky things are much much better now. know quite a no. of hci guys from the junior n senior ada batch. jielong, weixuan, paul, yipeng, naga, jackson. even threw baseball with aston (who call him bring 2 gloves into camp.hahaha) mingling more with jeffery and the uav guys. den got to know 2 fantastic guys, run xuan from holding n ryan from agc 10/07. very frenly n approachable ppl. rx damn good with IT. den ryan is really knowledgable when it comes to life in general la. judging from the way he talks abt studies, career options and working out. whahaha. i know who to find to protect mi when i m in trouble liao. he like some california gym instructor liddat can. haha. tt's the way a 26 year old shud be mah. mature, sensible, objective, humble, humourous, frenly and approachable. nort some gan jiong, anxious, confused, unorganised, egoistic, over-confident, paranoid individual like someone... like my 'buddy'... rarr.. haha. u can see the look of scorn on his face when i ask ryan for body buidling tips (cos he's really looks much better and fitter (he's freaking v shaped and has well toned muscles, as compared to short n stocky build of my 'buddy' la) and he really know the rationale for eating supplements, food intake, the biology of body, fat percentage, fluid retention in one's body etc (unlike my 'buddy' who takes supplements for building up of muscle mass and meng chiong weights aimlessly, get freaking drained out n look damn shagged all the time, so wrong, no time to body to recover lor) :PP

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Yest!!

well, they say when u meet the love of ur life, time slows down n even come to a stop. u become oblivious to everything else, and she becomes the onli focus of ur world at the very time n moment.. *aiya, like go watch 'The Big Fish' when Evan Macgrager was describing the time he knew he met the love of his love..beautiful scene tt sticks in my mind*

meet a really really pretty gal. guess she's a tracker or netballer. tall, nice tan, nice hair (the , nice smile. judging from wallet etc, has a great taste for things oso. the name's jolin ho. what's most impt is tt i met her dad oso =))

made my day seriously.

hahaha.okok.it's nort wad u tink la.just happen to see this gal at GFET centre. den her dad fetch her dad by car la, so was there oso. think she's there to do medical check-up to apply to be pilot. RSAF plsplsplsplsplspls accept her, and the medical side plsplsplsplsplspls pass her asap, so can see her ard in afs before i fly to france..

pray arhhhhhhhhhhh...

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